I've managed to get a stye on my eye, right at the inside corner of my left eyelid. My eyelid had been getting sore for a couple of days, but I figured I had rubbed it too hard or something. Friday morning I woke up and whole left side of my bottom eyelid was swollen, very tender to the touch and hurting a lot. It got worse by Saturday morning and was also itching. Some friends told me to put warm compresses on it so I did. When I woke up this morning some oozy goopy stuff came out of it and it seems like the swelling has gone down some and it doesn't hurt as much. My sister who is an RN came over today and said that it looked like a stye and said to keep putting the warm compress on it.

As of now it looks like a little more of the swelling has gone down and it doesn't hurt as much, but it's still itching and tender. My sister said it should be gone in three to four days. I hope so. It's really stressing me out.

In my rp world things are going crappy. I think it's my eye that's had me in bad mood lately, but some characters/players I just don't get. I know I was probably over the line a bit last night, but when someone calls my character a "pissy bitch", then you bet I'm going to come out with gunz blazing. So now a friend is mad at me and my character. I'm getting to a point where I don't even care.

I got some fantastic Godiva hazelnut coffee from one of my swaps. I made a pot this evening and it was sooo good. I drank it with the friendship bread my friend made. A delicious combination. Well, I should get going. I think I'll nose around LJ for a bit.

I'm really tired of the Jr. High/High School behavior from you. I expect more from an adult, but maybe too much of a rich, spoiled, little brat like you. I'm done. I've given you lots of chances. Maybe it's not meant to be. You've got other things now and you seem happy with that, so maybe this is where we should part ways for good. No one likes feeling second best, pushed aside or put on the back burner. And yes, I know that can go both ways.

I want to write more, but right now I feel sorta blah.

This weekend has been so busy. Friday night I went to my friend Corrine's house to hang with her and help finish up things for my sisters baby shower. I hadn't seen Corrine since High School. I'm talking over sixteen years! It was so good to see her. We had a great time. Her son had some friends over and a friend of Corrine's came over later and all of us went to La Rosa's for dinner. I laughed so much. After that Corrinne, her son and I went to the grocery store to pick up things for the baby shower. We ended up shopping for over three hours and going to two separate stores. We got back to her house and stayed up talking and finishing things up until 4 AM. Not a good idea considering I had to be up at 9 AM the next morning to help get everything set up for the baby shower by noon.

Needless to say I woke up late around 9:45, hurried through a shower then hauled over to my sisters. We decorated, got the food all set up and had the place ready to go by the time everyone started arriving. The baby shower was awesome and my sister received some of the cutest gifts. This was a special shower because mainly friends of me and my sister from High School were invited. It was a reunion of sorts. Friends I hadn't seen in sixteen or seventeen years. It was amazing. We caught up on everyone's lives, shared old stories, joked, laughed and just had a great time. It was so good to see everyone. We planned to have a cook out after my sister has the baby so everyone can see him/her and we can all keep in touch.

It was just nice seeing everyone. You know what I really like about our group of friends? No one was out to impress anyone or anything like. We were and still are, very down to earth and laid back. Somethings never change and that was something I was really glad to see. I can't wait to see them all again. :)

I admire, respect and love Jared Leto the singer, actor and person. I think he's incredibly talented, intelligent, passionate and creative. Fuck all the haters. It's like it's been said over and over, either you get it or you don't. If it's cool to hate Jared then I guess I'm as uncool as it gets, and damn proud of it.

Sometimes I hate life. Sometimes I hate that I let things get the better of me. And sometimes I wish I could simply go somewhere new and different away from everything. I know the saying "this too shall pass", but honestly I don't think it will. Or maybe it's just my mood. I hate feeling pissy, jealous and moody. It reminds me of High School and I'm not in school anymore. I'm sorry. I just needed to vent a little. I know sooner or later things will get better. Or at least I hope so.

I wanted to talk to my best friend today, but she wasn't around. So I got on line instead and surfed around. Everything is kinda boring to me lately. I need to snap out of this.. whatever it is. I think I'll throw on some music. That always seems to help.

It's just me and you
And I'm so blue.
Golden light
Shining bright,
I whisper my dreams
For all is not as it seems.


I got inspired today after looking at an ATC site. I don't make ATC's, but I do make hand-made postcards and I spent the better part of the afternoon working on some. I made five total, and to be honest I like them all. That doesn't usually happen with me. Usually I might like one or two and trash the rest, but I went in a different direction this time. Four of the postcards were sort of abstract. I had fun making them even though they were time consuming. The fifth one I painted. I'm not an artist by any means, but I can pretend I am. LOL

It was nice feeling that creative urge again. I use to make postcards all the time, then I stopped. This is only the second time in at least three or more years that I have worked on postcards. Hopefully this has opened up the gate to being more creative.